Motherhood
Posted by Lindsey , Monday, May 16, 2011 3:12 PM
Sometimes I really cry about this, as if my ultimate purpose in life is not being fulilled. As if I am a loser. As if every other woman on my facebook is better than me... Is one-upping me.
I am single. Motherhood is not yet on my radar. But do I not flinch when a baby is near me? Do I not swoon when an opportunity to hold one (a baby) is given to me?
I am still a woman. Motherhood still beckons my name. But right now, it is not right. I would make a terrible mother right now, even if I am almost 30. Sometimes I wonder if this trend is unique to me, but I know it is not.
There are many other women, out there right now, feeling the same way as I do. Our gender constructs can not be defined in this moment and it kills us. We are not real women, we are not feminine. We have some kind of plague because we choose another path. We are strong, masculine, have larger goals but we still yearn for this ultimate feminine gift of motherhood. Don't misunderstand us...or else we will misunderstand you..
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